Blowin' in the Wind

I have had literally no free time lately it seems. And add to that that I've been sick & not keeping food down, and I've been quite stressed. Then add to that Rasta being weird, and I just give up.

House things are falling into place, which is good, but I am frazzled. First off is the fact that once I move in I have no idea how I'll be getting to work for a month or so until I get a license. Which will be just in time for the icy treacherousness that is 210 Hwy in the winter. Then there is the fact that I won't be able to get painted/recarpeted before I move in like I had hoped.

Highlight of my weekend - David Byrne in KC:

Probably the coolest show I've ever been to. He is so amazing. I love him.

Besides that we also went to Em Chamas, Knuckleheads, & Ameristar, all of which are always good. Saw a lot of Krista & Dane & Zeke which was a nice change. Lost my money at the boat. I much prefer Argosy.

I've been super busy at work. Rasta has basically stopped contacting me at all. Generally he will answer my text messages but that's about the extent of it. I don't know if I did something, or if he's bored with this, or if he's just also stressed. I know everybody I'm close to seems like they're having a bad time of it lately. It sucks. His birthday is tomorrow and I am making him something for it. Also giving him an inappropriate gift. Except who knows if that will even happen, any of it... It's getting frustrating. I am thinking I will stop sending him messages and just wait and see if he tries to get a hold of me at all. I have a lot on my plate to be the only person making an effort. Granted, everybody wins in the end when we do get together...I still think though that with this whole 'friends with benefits' thing, even if we aren't having the benefits we should both make an effort to maintain the friends part...Bah. I dunno.

I can't wait for Halloween. I ordered the rest of my costume yesterday. :D I think we're going to be the most badass Spice Girls ever. Even more than the real Spice Girls.

So at first I was not sure I liked this song, but I totally love it now. (Unfortunately it's not on imeem yet...)
Ben Folds & Regina Spektor - You Don't Know Me

That is my life right now. I am spending all of my time pushing on a door that is clearly marked 'Pull'. It looks like it would be a push door, so I throw all of my weight against it only to find out that I am going about it completely wrong. I see an obstacle and pour all of my energy into it. The effort is futile because I'm simply going about it wrong.

Everybody is getting ready to head back to Rolla. Not me, I'm potentially getting ready to be jobless. Maybe I could get my online classes finished that way, I guess. And my house continues to be a source of stress. After all of this, I'd better get it! I'm going to come out of this with hypertension AND a house, not just hypertension! :)

I haven't been sleeping well, and it has made me quite a jaded little girl. I am hoping this weekend will be glorious - I am taking a trip to Tulsa to see Rocco's friends' band play, and will be hanging out with Erica & Mickey while there. I could not be more excited for these last minute plans - I miss those kids.

Last night was good - We went to Emily's apartment and played some SingStar. Also, I learned something about cucumbers. Inquire directly if you wish to hear more. :)

I'm listening to my old radio shows, and 2 things come to mind: 1. I miss Rolla, and 2. Damn, I have good taste.

Peace out.